Resistant No More? Maybe.
So, since I wrote this post on Monday, I ended up giving my “situation” a whole lot of thought. This time last year, I ran from him. I had decided that it wasn’t worth considering and I’d given up on any potential for “us”.
For months I got caught up in other people… other relationships (for lack of a better word). But I always thought about him. I always missed him. I never knew why I couldn’t let it go completely. I’d never had this problem before — I am a professional ‘Dear John’ kind of gal. Even with my kryptonite, I booked it at record speed. But I couldn’t with him and it was killing me.
For the whole eight months I refrained from seeing or speaking with him, he always left himself open for me. Every few weeks, I’d reluctantly agree via email or text to see him and then change my mind at the last minute. In late July when I initiated a meeting, he obliged and here we are again.
He’s far from Mr. Perfect and I’m not even sure he’s Mr. Right. But he’s a great guy nonetheless. I haven’t decided anything crazy, but I’ve decided to have an open mind about him. I’ve decided I’m going to try and open up to him. For those of you who know me personally, you know this is out of character!
Lo and behold, this is what was in the Astrology.com cards for me yesterday:
The World Card suggests that you may have come a long way, baby, in reaching your romantic goals or letting go of the past. Now you could receive further gifts in your love life. Perhaps some family planning or a change in your relationship that can expand your horizons is in the works. Get ready for creative plans for the future. This may be the real deal. You could finally feel complete — but it’s only the beginning.
Ironic, definitely, and I still believe it’s purely coincidental. I’m merely amused by this, I promise. I haven’t yet gone off the deep end. I don’t think. ;)
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